So excited!!!!!!

My ma just came back from Melbourne after one long month! I quite surprise myself by how happy i was to have her home, as i am just not such a homely person. Home sweet home ma…awwwhh. She said she’ll have to go back in Nov again..hmph, maybe i can go over to accompany her? And to celebrate my birthday there?! And she changed a hefty sum of Aussie $$, as the exchange rate is on the low now. You see…soooo many reasons to go back to Down Under! Hahha my travel bug is back!

There’s something SO EXCITING keeping in my heart!!! How i wish i can share it with someone, especially dy..but i’m sworn to secrecy!! AHHHHHH…..hahahha it’s sooo exciting!!! 😀

Feeling nostalgic..

Woah! I woke up at 5am today! Probably because i’m on a 3day fast and was so hungry that i decided to sleep my hunger away! Feeling nostalgic over some things recently.

Firstly, been feeling nostalgic…over my life.

My baby days -> Pri sch days -> Sec sch/braces days -> Growing up in chc days -> Starting out to work -> long hair -> then short hair again -> i think i turn out quite alright eventually 🙂

Well as you can see from my photos, i was what people called..a late bloomer haha. Been like this all my life. I’ve only managed to master my ABCs when i was in Primary 1 can you imagine?! Growing up, i was the typical nerdy, shy, timid and blend into the wallpaper kinda person. I didn’t had alot of friends and very often carried a low esteem of myself. But looking back, i’m really grateful to the work God has done in my life. What i have and who i am now, would not have happened if not for Him.

During the EDGE meeting, when Pst shared about how he used to pray wanting to be more like his good friend Pst Aries..It got me reminded on how i used to make prayers like that too haha!! *Blush..oh don’t look at me like that!* But it’s interesting how God works in His time.

Secondly, been feeling nostalgic…over my ministry.

One thing i will always been thankful for, is the privilege and honor to be able to serve God as a CGL. To me, one of the thing money can never buy..is to see how your efforts and love can help change another’s life for the better.

It had not been an easy ride up for me. But i guess if you ask any CGL, i believe they will have their own story to tell. To cut the long story short, God never gave up hope on me and since then had had some great memories serving Him.

Looking at all the past CG photos..it’s somewhat a mixed feeling. Miss some of the people that had left, and wonder how are they now and if they’re happy. Yet feel happy too that others have went on to do great things and are shining bright for God! And as for the now? I am believing as a CG we will grow to 50 by Dec!!

Lastly, feeling nostalgic…over my friends.
I’ve never been those who have many friends, but have been blessed by a few great friends in my life. Like what Pst said, in life it’s good enough to have a few great friends. Well that’s good enough for me and i’m thankful for them!

Introducing, Meebo Tan

We got to know each other in my poly days. She was the one who brought me to church, and got me started in my walk with God. I think i had probably travelled the most with her. I still remembered how she nose bled once when we’re overseas which totally freaked me out la!! Her greatest joy seem to come from the ability to irritate me whenever she can, but i guess that’s the fun of being with your friends. Being able to be who you are. Meebo Tan, i hope you will come back to chc soon!

Next up..we have bian how er (F2), Sue Sue

Still remembering the days when we started work in NGO, and boss will always tell us to tone down on our hair colour! hhahaa…Sue sue always like it hot and sexy…pissst! She’s probably one of the most genuine and real person you’re ever meet. Many times i just do not know whether to laugh or say her of her messiness, and doing the funniest thing without realizing it! Like always crying out “Faaa-theer” loudly regardless of her surroundings, or wanting to pose with a payphone squatting down?! Hahaha! She’s been a faithful friend who has quietly seen through my ups & downs. Sue sue, you will discover what God has destined you to be!

Last but definitely not the least, ah dy

Some have said that we’re total opposites, and i guess it’s true! Such a fun loving and spontaneous person..you’ll just feel happy being around her.  Been some great memories spend with her..like introducing me to the world of fake lashes, sneaking DVDs from JB, blaming me for her cause of putting on weight as she has to finish all the leftover food i’ve over-ordered, to just doing the most random stuffs. She’s probably the one whom i’ve been most open with, and had seen me through some of the lowest points of my life as well. I don’t think i’ve ever told her this, but i’ve always been very proud of her. Achieving so much at her age, displaying of such maturity in tough times, bigness of heart to keep on forgiving..what an awesome woman of God! Have not been hanging out as much recently, miss her silly acts and laughs at times..but we have to focus now, fun will come later again. Ah dy, like what you used to tell me, tomorrow will be better! 🙂

Wow..this post seems endless ah. I’ve learnt a thing or 2 about friendship and myself this year. And am still learning.
Learning to value friendships more than just focusing on the circumstances that have happened, because ultimately God loves people..not what we had done, events or circumstances. And so should i.
Learning to have a bigger heart to contain more people.
Learning that in all things, God is still the only altar of my life.

Well that’s for the past. But i’m looking on to even greater things for the NOW and the FUTURE!

Ooo..the sun has risen! Looks like it’s gonna be a great day ahead!

Graduation day

Today was Graduation Day, for my degree in SIM. Hmm…many asked if i’m excited over it and all, but i really don’t feel much about it. I wonder why? I’m just glad this chapter of my life is finally closed..char was saying it’s because i’m such a rebellious student, skipping lessons and all! Hawhaw! Maybe? :p

Well, my heart did beat faster twice during the graduation.
The 1st time was when char came super late, and i needed her to help me put on my mortar board!! Everybody had theirs on except me!! She came in just 9mins before the graduation (like so late!!!), in the nick of time..to finally fit the crown of glory onto my head.
The 2nd time was when i was on stage, not because i’ll be getting my certificate soon…but because some guy previously fell on stage while getting his!!! I was praying with all my heart i will not trip and fall like him!! Oh gosh..he got the loudest applause…but NOT an entrance i would like to make. Hahaha!

And so in a blink of an eye, my moment was over. 3 & half years of slogging for assignments, projects, online tests, exams has finally came to an end :).

Thankful to God for really helping me graduate, especially when my last module was on appeal case!
Thankful to my parents for supporting me throughout my entire education, lending me the car when i have night lessons, forcing me to drink bird nest during my exam periods, etc.
Thankful to char for bearing with the times she has to keep absolute silence when i’m revising for my exams. You have no idea how torturous it is for her. *Grinz*

Thanks to sue sue for congratulating me and your prayer in the sms. I will try my best to use my acquired wisdom as wisely as possible :). Thanks to my members and friends who congratulated me as well! And special THANKS to char for arranging a “celebration” party with nicole & edwin…am very touched by the gesture, even though we didn’t get to meet up in the end haha! It meant something to me :).

Somehow, it felt incomplete though. Perhaps because of the absence of my ma, and also dy. It’ll be great if they had been there too. But well, they have their commitments and priorities, so…still happy that dad & char were there to witness an important chapter of my life.

I miss my ma suddenly..seems like she’s been away for the longest this time round. She just told us she will need to extend her stay for another week..sigh. Hope she’s coping well over there…maybe it’ll be a good chance for her to jian fei? Hahahah!! Come home soon ma…hui lai ah, hui lai ah…hahahah!

Happy and productive

Have you ever felt like you’ve been so busy running up and down doing stuff the entire day and the moment you reach home you just feel like lying on the bed to sleep but yet you can’t cause there are still loads of things for you to finish? *Gasp for air* haha!

Well…my days have kinda been like this recently. I’ve been keeping myself busy with appointments and meeting up with my members, and although it’s tiring..i’m feeling fulfilled after each day. Perhaps the joy of the Lord is my strength! Don’t you just love it when there are things to look forward too, and being productive in life?

Anyway, TODAY had been a happy day for me!

Reason #1: Met 2 potential clients whom might be getting substantial cases = one step closer to my target! God, i pray they will take up the policies before the deadline!!!
Reason #2:Watched Mamma Mia again today! Hee…it just put me into such a hopelessly romantic mood once again…awwhh. It’s such a fun, spontaneous and free-spirited show! I wanna be more creative and spontaneous in my life!
Reason #3:And to end off the day, met char lun and had steamboat for dinner!! Woohoo…slurpp :). We had a good chat too, talk about different aspects of life, etc etc..

So if you have been busy, don’t complaint about it. But be happy that you’re busy, because only the busy gets busier!

You always have hope still

I was very ministered by the word today in service. It was not a new word, but towards the end of the service when pastor kept emphasizing on creativity, having no scarcity in God and as we sang..”My God reigns..”, then i had a…flashback:

“Woahh…my adrenaline was pumping when i met up with my client few days back. It feels like i’m a new adviser going for my 1st appointment…and probably, my heart was beating faster than his! Although i did not close the case, the funny thing was..i felt even more provoked to want to meet even more people to hit my target! And i’m happy to say i finally closed my 1st case today after a longest time! Feels so goooood :)”

..”My God reigns, His love will never..”  as the church echoed back in the audi (as if like movie hor, change scenes and all..haha), God reminded me of what happened above and softly told me..if you only believe, I will reign. I have a secret desire to hit a certain target in work before the year ends, seems sooo out of reach..but i really want to believe it can be done. God, if only i believe?

He also spoke of the amount for me to pledge for the coming Arise & Build today. Woahh..God, you sure? Haha! Arise & Build has always been one of the most exciting part of my life..because i love to give, and i love most being able to give to my God.

We had a great BBQ outreach on Friday with a total turnout of 20 friends! Great job W146 & W415!! Let’s continue to believe for greater growth! Don’t forget about our vision by Dec ya! I brought 2 of my personal friends for an adult outreach as well, they enjoyed themselves! Jill Lowe is one funny lady..haha. I pray they will be open and get integrated soon! Am very thankful to God for all these breakthroughs..indeed success comes in little steps.

Pastor mentioned recently about the importance of having a vision. Without a vision, it’s like swimming in an ocean. You can’t see the horizon and you try to grab the 1st plank of wood that comes along..if it doesn’t help, then you’ll grab the next plank, and the next = drifting through life. But with a vision, it’s like swimming in a pool, all attention focused on wanting to reach the other end of the pool..so even with many planks around, you don’t need to grab onto it. Because you are focus.
Sooo everybody, point your finger to Sharon Wan, and say: Sharon Wan..please be focus!!

I’m excited! Feels like my heart is strengthen, and my fighting spirit is getting stronger by the day.
My God will reign..over my work.
My God will reign..over my ministry.
My God will reign..over my relationships.
And i pray the same above for all my members and friends.

Lastly, i’ve just got to thank all the lovely peeps who had been so nice to buy me my fave Pocky the past few weeks. My dear members, my friends..and especially sue sue, who has bought so many for me the past few weeks hoping to brighten up my day! I am blessed :).

But…Pocky is not my only fave, i also love steamboat, orh-jian, french fries, B&J, shopping, watches..and of course travelling! So if you’re in a generous mood…hee hee hee.

tee koh?

Was having dinner with my members few days back..and were just casually talking about how we love to eat..blah blah blah and how we can’t resist from our fave food.

So when it drifted to orh-jian (my fave btw)..my eyes widen! And at that moment, my member exclaimed: “Sharon! You look like tee koh!” I nearly chocked on my drink when i heard it! No one!! No one!!..has ever called me a tee koh!! I thought only perverted ah jeks are known as that?!! And it’s bad enough to be called a tee koh…but a tee koh @ a plate of orh-jian?!?! Gasspp!!! What!!!!

Tee koh…oh man. My dearest member, please don’t ever say that to a person ok!!! Hahaha…of course, everybody had a good laugh over it. And that’s one reason fellowshipping with them is fun…such naive ignorance which makes you not know to correct them or to laugh with them :).

Oh..and i might never look at my fave food the same way again..tsk tsk.

Priorities

I was telling my members i started blogging yesterday..and when they asked for the address, i decided not to tell them yet till i’m a more season writer! But knowing the resourceful them..i guess it will berchai lobang soon haha. I was saying i’ll probably write once a month? And everybody chorused together like..”WHAT?!! SHARON YOU’RE SUPPOSED TO DO IT EVERYDAY!!” Haha…so i said i’ll do my best :).

So i was flipping through some of my old sermon notes yesterday night…and came across a message by one of my fave pastors. He said: “If we judge what we value by our circumstances, we’ll de-value what is important to give value to what is momentary.”

Wah…chiem. Haha. Took me a while to redigest it all over again. How true ya. It set me to think about the things which i’ve valued in my life and if i had de-valued what was really important for things which are not so. It got scarier as i thought through..as the list seems to get longer!! Ahhhhh!!! I cannot change what had passed..but i know i need to make sure my priorities are right from NOW onwards!

Wanzai…FOCUS!!

ps: can someone watch mamma mia with me again? it’ll just make me happy.

A new day

Hello everyone, this is char, wanzai’s sister. After typing the title of the post, my sister has gone to choose clothes for what to wear for service. I think she’s having what we call, writer’s block.

Shoo char!

Well…Started off the day by spending some time in God’s presence today, got reminded of a psalm that has walked me through many seasons of my life.

Ps 73:17, 21, 25-26 “until i went into the sanctuary of God; then i understood…then i realized my heart was bitter, and i was all torn up inside…God is the strength of my heart..”

Was feeling a little bitter towards some stuffs in the past few months..& not sure if i’ve subconsciously gotten bitter with God! Gosh..i hope not man! *fingers crossed* This verse did hit me on how it can mess up my heart. It’s like how many times we can hear messages and know the ‘right’ thing to do – head knowledge..yet only when it happens to you, reality really hits. Really missed the presence of God, and it feels great to be close to God. I missed Him. Recommitted my life & thoughts to Him, and somehow found a little more strength & hope once again.

Told God to let these last 3 months not be the last of 2008, but be a new day for me. Somehow i feel like a newborn child starting all over again, in all the different areas of my life. But hey, i guess that’s the fun of doing something new ya? A new heart, new altar of God and a new focus in my life :).

Hello world!

Hello world!

A first try in blogging..wow. It seems so much harder to pen down thoughts in my mind than expected.

My friend suggested me trying this. It might be good as an outlet for the soul. So here goes nothing!