Thank YOU for 2008 :)

Pastor hit it right. This was a bittersweet year, one of the quickest yet longest year i’ve had. There were ups & downs, tears & laughter, amazing experiences & not so memorable ones too. Through it all, I’m grateful for everything and give thanks to God. 

As you know, my memory doesn’t serve me well. So i’ll try my best to recall as much through photos i have. Thank you for…

January: Guangzhou/Hong Kong with Dy & Jo, registered our 1st business venture
February: Shoe business commenced @ Far East, 1st attempt of acupuncture for dieting! hahaha
March: Phuket with Dy, Elaine, Xian & Victor, Yunting got water baptized!
April: Road trip to Genting/KL with Dy, Karen & Serchek..so fun driving, eating, squeezing into a small hotel room and all..hahha
May: Taiwan with Ma & Char, study sessions with Dy, 1st time seeing fireflies at an ulu kumpong village in Malaysia
June: W415 was added into my life :). Camp X – Xplosive, Xciting, Xtrodinary!
July: Taiwan with many for my 2nd mission trip, an honor to serve in the 2 weeks youth camp, stepped down as AM
August: Melbourne with MAD & Char, Jodie’s SOT graduation, Project SuperNerd, 1st morning prayer in CHC
September: Watched S’pore very 1st F1 race, launch of EMERGE youth service, Y.O.U. @ Sentosa, hair finally grew longer!
October: Graduated from SIM, Shot to Fame, 1st attempt to blogging
November: MACnitude, 1st Asia Conference, Arise & Build, wrote my 3rd song (Closer to You), received my 1st atas wallet from Prada, finally lost weight!
December: Brought 15 personal friends to church, year end thanksgiving parties

Wow..it’s one year i’ve travelled the most!! And photos are really powerful! Really helped me remember alot. Reflecting back, it had been quite an amazing year despite all the heartaches. Thank you to every single one of you in my life. Without you, i will not be who i am today. I hope through it i have grown to become a stronger, wiser and more mature person.

Had our CG Thanksgiving party yesterday. It was a fun family affair. Sue & myself decided not to get any helpers/members involved at all. Because for once..we really wanna appreciate and thank them for serving God so diligently in 2008. They have become more than just members, but have grown to be my friends and part of family. W146 & W415, I really thank God for each and everyone of you, love you guys so much! 

Also wanna thank all my ex & current members, Char, Sue, Nen, Rae, Ping, Karen and Nicole for all the lovely christmas/appreciation presents you’ve got. Thanks for filling up my love tank! 

2009 will be a year of new songs, new joy, new strength, new anointing, new things to come. Looking forward to a new year of new things!

Thank YOU for being part of my life in 2008.
I’m blessed.
Much loves, Wanzai :).

Never DIY

So Christmas had came and gone, just like most part of the year. I hope and wish everyone a Jolly Merry Christmas :).

I’m very happy that I’ve managed to bring 15 of my personal family members & friends to church for service! Although none of them responded, but i know every step is one step closer. I don’t think i’ve ever brought so many people to church before, so praise God for that!

Had a few horrific experiences too! I was telling people of my failing memory and vision, perhaps due to the fasting i don’t know. Anyway..

Firstly, i left home for church thinking i’ve brought my shoes along. But when i reached church..to my horrors, i couldn’t find it!! So i had to drive all the way back home to get my shoes, then back to church again! Hahahahah i thought it was so silly!

Secondly, i was standing in front of my fridge, wanting to dispense some ice..and i just couldn’t remember how to!!!! For a few good seconds, i just stood there as if i was using a stranger’s fridge!! I had to shout out to Char to ask her, she gave me the unbelievable look as she showed me how to do it, and said to me in disbelief, i’m getting you Ginko nuts!!

Thirdly, i almost knocked down a motorcyclist and a person on separate occasions! Did not see the motocyclist turning towards me as i’ve already checked my blindspot, it seems like he just appear from no where. And then yesterday, this man just dash out of the road suddenly and i was just few seconds closed from hitting him!!!!!!!! My heart stopped man!!!!!!

I really really hope it’s due to the fasting..if not, i think i better go visit the doctor.

Oh yes..the last horrific thing that happened. I went to buy a DIY dye as my colour faded. Wanted to tone it down to look more professional especially for my interviews. So i selected this DARK BROWNcolour. Sue was telling me i gotta dye it for a longer time as my hair is quite bright. I was like oh ok..so i went home and followed step by step. I nearly fainted when i washed off the dye!!!!! Because instead of a dark brown colour, my hair looks BLACK!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!! I’m so sad & upset..can i like sue Lo’real or something?!! I did my last DIY probably 7-8 years ago, and it reminded why i stopped using DIY. Lesson learnt: NEVER DIY!!!!! 

My HP is dying soon. It’ll resist sending smses at times, and i’ll not receive smses at times too. Don’t get me started on the incoming and outgoing calls too. So…if you do text or call me, make sure you get a response from me ya. If you don’t, you probably know why.

There was a debate at Karen’s bbq yesterday over which hp i should get. Apparently, the entire HP market consists of only 2 HPs now. Blackberry vs Nokia E71. And seems like everybody’s fighting for Blackberry to win. Do you know of any other HPs that’s nice too? I don’t know, Blackberry seem too high-tech a phone for me.

Something caught me down yesterday. Everytime when someone ask, sms, or talk about it..it’ll just make it harder for me to move on. The pain will just come back. I’m trying my best but circumstances seem to want otherwise. I guess it’s time to take out the thought i have and seriously consider it now.

Counting down to Korea.

First recording

Many thanks to Nicole for helping me record the song i wrote previously. She’s such an awesome singer! Thank you so much for taking the time siew!!

Closer to You:

3 weddings and a funeral

Events in the past few weeks brought me back to one of the hit shows that starred Hugh Grant, “4 Weddings and a Funeral”.

Because in this month alone, I’ve attended 3 weddings! All 3 weddings had very different themes and style, but all romantic and beautiful :). One was princessy, one was deep set mysterious, one was laid-back retro styled. I also attended a funeral of my pri school friend. How such events can bring people together. Friends you’ve lost contact with, distant relatives you didn’t know existed, or if cupid struck..strangers to lovers ;p! 

Something happened made me feel very sad. My client called and said his 1 year old son contracted cancer. When i was down at the hospital, the 1st thing he said was..Sharon, i am so devastated. I knew in my heart things are not looking good.

When i saw the son, i was not prepared for what i was about to see. I had to hold back my tears. He was screaming in pain from all the needle poking because they can’t get the drip in. His eye was so swollen due to the cancer infection. My heart sunk. I can’t imagine how much more his parents felt.

This boy was like a miracle boy to them as he was conceived after 2 years of trying. Through struggling to have a baby, to being pregnant, to the birth of their son..they had always shared their experiences with me. And now this. I really pray another miracle will happen for them.

It had been quite an eventful week as well. Attended 6 My Hope sessions where 26 friends came and blessed in total, started planning for appreciation meeting, trying to hit my outstanding quota in work, in the midst of battling this persistent flu i caught and hitting the mid-way mark of my 7 day fast! 

Beginning to feel excited to end the year..there are certainly doses of uncertainty but a part this song will express most what i’m feeling now:

There was a time I packed my dreams away
Living in a shell, hiding from myself
There was a time I was so afraid
I thought i’ve reached the end, baby that was then
I was made of more than my yesterdays

And i have the courage like never before
I’ve settle for less now i’m ready for more
Ready for more

This is my now, and I am breathing in my moment
As i look around i can’t believe the love i see
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now

Wanzai is living for the now :)! 

K.O.R.E.A!!!!

Was so inspired by Pastor Kong yesterday…so…

I’m going Korea!!!
Wheeee!!!!!

And my parents are coming for Christmas service :).

MTV 2009

I’m happy! Because  i submitted a $6,000 case today! Thank God for it, especially its annual payment! It’ll really help me out in my BF :). Had 1 interview in the morn & 1 in the noon. With some time in between, so randomly asked if Charmaine wanna meet up for a drink since we had not fellowship for the longest time!

Updated her briefly about my life, felt good after talking to her. She mentioned part of growing up, is learning to handle and balance life, with the wisdom of God.

Leaving the place, i just felt an urge to seek God. I started to pray when i reached home. In the midst of it, began to write down my resolutions for 2009. Got most of them ready. One of them is to keep myself accident/summon free for the whole year while driving! Haha *fingers crossed!*

During the PM with Pastor Kong tonight, during worship..God told me to go on a 7-day fast. Oh gosh..it’s been a long time since i last fasted!! I even asked God why 7 days!! Hahah..anyway, I’m gonna start on Thursday. 7 is the number of completion, and i’ll break fast on Christmas morning..where 8 is the number of a new beginning.

Perhaps God will complete what He had started in 2008, and prepare a new beginning in 2009. Hmm..nice way to end the year :). Quite excited to start fasting, feel like faith is gonna explode!  

Things are not happening yet. But I felt a release in my heart today, i think i’m finally ready to move on :).
MTV 2009 (Moving Towards Vision 2009)!

ps: my nose is running like a tap now..do keep me in your prayers won’t you :). Can’t afford to fall sick now! Flu…be gone!!

Awesome!

God has been very good.

I was at my wits’ end. After talking to boss the other day, I went home to pray. Remembering what Olivia Tay did in the My Hope DVD, i made a deal with God too. Asked Him to get someone unusual to call me to give me a direction in my work. The next day, lo and behold..someone who seldom calls me DID called me, and spoke to me about my work!! Wow..be very careful for what you pray. Ask, and you shall receive!

After which, i made another deal with God. Since it was pretty fun the 1st time hheee. This time round, i asked God if He can send someone to give me a direction in my ministry and relationships. But to make it even more unusual..it’ll be someone talking physically and not through the HP. Guess what!!!! 2 days later..someone DID speak to me physically about ministry and relationships! My hair just stood up!!

Wow! I’m just speechless..by how real God is, and His unchanging love. It’s awesome!

Zillion congrats on the wedding of my long time kaki Mr. Shaun Tay and his lovely wife Elyn!! I’ve been to many weddings, but this one felt different most probably because it’s a great feeling to see someone whom you’ve grown up together finally settling down and starting a new family :).
Also, he used my wedding song in his montage!!!!! Stealer! Hahaha

It was also like an ex-CL zone gathering. Was nice to see all the familiar faces around, and it made me miss hanging out with people.

So after service, after most of the members had left. The remnant decided to do some Christmas shopping in town. So Sue, Char, Wen, Germaine, Shihui, Dan Ang, John, Junhui and myself squeeze into my small car and off with our mission!

But by the time we reached town due to the terrible jam, most of the shops were closed!! We walked and walked with a hope some shops are still open. The total harvest = sue got a pair of sandals + some random Christmas photos. In the end, we decided to adjourn to NUS to have some supper. 

I’m blessed to have a car to drive, some of my fav bonding happened in the car, perhaps that why i love to drive, love to give rides, love to send people home! I’m blessed to have such fun-loving members in my life too.

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Foretaste

Decided to dye my hair recently to a darker colour tone. Realized it had been almost a year since i last had a dark colour! I’m liking it…most of the people (except my members!) said i look more mature now. Which is good, since i don’t really look my age.

Also finally fulfilled my almost 1-year-old promise by bringing my boys to Sentosa with Char. Had a foretaste of being what a mother is like! I have the habit of walking ahead of others subconsciously..so in sudden moments I’ll have to slow down and remember I’m with 2 kids! Or make sure they don’t get kidnapped when going to the toilet! Or ensuring their stomachs are filled! Nevertheless, we had a blast!

The Luge is highly recommended…you gotta try it! It’s so fun!! A pity the ride down was short. I’m still amazed by how matured the boys are! Saying things like can you marry a man who stays at Sentosa Cove? Or knowing how to appreciate the high life of One Degree 15? Or speaking in a British accent?!! Hahha it’s so hilarious! I hope they won’t grow up so fast man!!

It was also a realization that it’s indeed not cheap to have a child! Just 1 trip to Sentosa alone costed us almost $160 for all the rides/shows/food!! Wow..a big hole in my pocket!! 

The day ended perfectly with dinner with the parents at Crystal Jade Steamboat!!!! Nice……:D

My cousin is leaving for USA. She married an ang moh there, and now that her permit has all been settled, she’ll have to stay there for at least 2 years before she can come back to visit.

We had an all-cousins’ farewell dinner for her. It was the 1st we ever had, which was quite fun. Where are all the other cousins? They were too busy chatting and drinking to bother taking photo haha! Hope the next one will not be 2 years later when she’s back! Have a great life over in USA!!

Touched

Went office today to do one-to-one with boss. Thought it was only right that i shared with him i’m looking out for a new job.

He told me to consider staying on, and the different ways i can continue my business with. But what touches me most was knowing i’ve been blessed the past 4 years having such a good boss.

His eyes turned red and teary while talking to me. In the last 4 years, i only remember boss crying 3 times. Once, during devotion when giving thanks to God. Once, after devotion talking to me and sharing some of his challenges. Today, the 3rd time.

He suddenly asked me why am i so sad, why do i feel hurted? For a moment, i was stunned! Because i did not tell him anything at all! And don’t think anyone could have told him too. Knowing i was stunned, he said don’t be shock la..since you don’t share with boss, boss can only use the HS to discern. So scary..how sharp can he be!

But after asking me, i told him i can’t share but i’m much better now. He turned teary, almost like he felt for me. He also asked me to stay, to support him through this period of time, it’ll mean alot to him.

I’m thankful  for such a good boss in my life, he’s like a spiritual father to me. He had helped me up many times, and have been more than gracious towards me.

I’m torn. Would really wish to help him fight through the battle, but on the other hand..i can’t go on like this too. Need a decision soon. Dear God, i need Your light!

Thank you boss, for everything.