where i belong

I’ve dealt with my ghosts and I’ve faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I’m at peace with myself
I have been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I’m movin’ on

I’ve lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they’re always the same
They mean me no harm but it’s time that I face it
They’ll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don’t belong
I’m movin’ on

I’m movin’ on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there’s no guarantees, but I’m not alone
There comes a time in everyone’s life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn’t
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I’ve loved like I should but lived like I shouldn’t
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I’m movin’ on

 

This could easily be my life. But..thank You for the mighty Cross, that dreams can live again : ).

just a thought

How i got to know God personally, was through my poly friend.
She started singing to me over the phone on all the new songs she learnt in church, and funnily..i will just listen to her sing as well hahaha
Over time, she invited me, i went, one thing leading to another.

I realized recently, that the thing that never fails to draw me back to God, is worship. For some, it could be the word, the fellowship..but for me, i’ll have to say it’s worship.
It touches my heart..every time i can feel the touch of God while worshipping Him, and being lost in His presence, feeling Him close. No matter what happens, how far i was…i’m drawn again.

What i’m getting at is..i was wondering if this was because of how i got to know God. What is the thing that draws you back to God? Is it something similar to how you got to know Him in the beginning too?
Haha..not that it matters, just a thought.

Another thought i had when i was in the toilet. I wonder if there’s people out there who will rather use public toilets outside..finish all their “business”, then go home. So to save money on toilet paper & utility bills. A strange thought, but it just came to me hahaha

reflect and release

Finally got some time to sit down & reflect upon my past year..just a short review:

– attended 8 weddings
– served my last meeting on 7Mar after 7 years of ministry
– worked half a year, played half a year hahaha
– finally attended a baking course
– travelled to 4 countries
– 1st time attending a chinese concert with sexy
– char’s & chubbs’ convocation
– became a godmom
– celebrated my 10th driving anniversary on 13Dec

It had been a pretty quick year, and believe many will agree with me on this. However fast time flies, we just need to catch up with it. Looking back on the past events, i am thankful in all things : ).

Entering into the new year..i feel i’m being released to do what i was supposed to do for a long time. Perhaps, it was just my hesitations and fears that caused the delay. But oh wells..better late then never! Hahaha

I was pretty excited to finally purchase my organizer yesterday. After putting down the impt dates & what nots..i feel organized already!

This year, I’m believing that he will:
– bless me indeed
– enlarge my territory (in all ways)
– His hand will be with me
– and keep me from evil
2 Chro 4:10

Heard something recently..That there’s no great people around. Only those who are committed to their cause, and because of that..it makes them great.
Thank you to all the great people in my life. It’s because of your commitment to keep on believing in me, that I’m who I am.
May I make you guys proud in 2011 : )