hello, hello

So, I had a sudden urge to start writing once again.

Time has gone by just like that. I feel like I’ve aged, not just physically but in my soul as well.

It started with me listening to some of the old recordings I did with my bestie. I felt moved in my heart whilst listening to the songs. Somehow, I was transported back to the days where life seem to be simpler, and the heart, fuller.

A simple song & a guitar can bring endless hours of fun.
A bowl of fries & a group of friends can bring tons of laughter.
A movie & a box of popcorn can bring joy to an entire day.

Has society changed, or was it my heart that changed. Or perhaps both.

This year, I felt led in my heart to focus on happiness. Not that I’ve been unhappy. But to learn to be happy in all things, in all ways, every day. To be satisfied, to be patient when things don’t go my way (in other words, don’t sulk haha), to open my eyes and see that there are many different little things in my life that can bring happiness everyday. To be thankful, to be grateful.

And if you ask me – so what brought you happiness this year?
I would say..picking up my guitar & worshipping Him, seeing people I love smile, spending time with them, being kind to people, trying new things for the 1st time, not getting summons so far (*fingers crossed!!* haha), being & staying healthy.

Happiness is free. It’s air, it’s everywhere. Sometimes we just need to quieten our hearts, open our eyes and we will see it right at our doorsteps. I didn’t say it’ll always be easy, but if we try, it’ll be there : ).

I’ve discovered a new role model – John D Rockefeller. He was & still is 1 of the richest man ever to lived in the world. A man who was wise, shrewd when he had too, humble & placed God 1st. He wrote this at the end of his life, and it’s something i want to work towards too.

“I was early taught to work as well as play,
My life has been one long, happy holiday;
Full of work and full of play –
I dropped the worry on the way –
And God was good to me everyday.”

I’ve always been a playful one, but i want to be able to look back and be proud of the work I’ve build as well. Perhaps, work will be the focus for 2015? ; )

it’s necessary

Swipe, swipe, wipe wipe, blow blow. Ahhh better.
Quite dusty. Been a while i last came and felt like writing haha

Had a strange encounter in the past month, something that i last encountered 9 years back.
I am still wondering why it happened. Perhaps, in the times when i feel like throwing the towel..this would be the reminder to a starting point.

The elections. I am never one who voices my opinions strongly unless provoked haha..but experiencing it for the 1st time did made me wonder the kind of environment i grew up in, and the kind that the future generations will.
I admire the boldness of the younger people, and the different perspective they carry. Yet at the same time, Rome was not built in a day.
Many people around me felt very strongly towards the party they opposed plus the interesting characters to invoke even more emotions in us..like the chow ah lian, the apparent airhead, the hottest ever contested grc, etc.
It was, entertaining. But after it all, I decided to make a decision based solely on who i feel i can count on and not what happened in the past. I’ve learnt after all, to always look ahead ya?

Have you ever felt like, you have everything you wanted..but nothing you needed?
How true, when someone said we are safest & most secure, when God is in the center of our will.
It’s never nice, when your buttons are being pushed. Ahhhhhh!!!! It’s necessary.
Initially i felt like there’s a lot of things i would like to write about. But the more i wrote, the more i know there’s only one person i can turn to.

Love life, and see good days : )

mountain moving

Ahhh. A fresh day to a new month.
Somehow, there’s an excitement tinkering inside of me!

Was so blessed from re-reading “The Creative Mind” again.
And it’s amazing how we can feel so different reading a book a second time.
I have stayed on my mountain for too long. It’s time to get moving, and to find a new one : ).
Deut 1:6-7

Had great family fun in a short trip to Hongkong..it’s been quite a while since we last travelled tgt as a family : ).
Shall let the photos do the talking!

Shopping at her fav H&M!

Introducing my favorite-est YUDAN to them!!

Our very 1st train ride together hahaha

Cable car ride up to daiyushan

Jump shot! Hehehe

Rusty fishing village – Tai-O!

Dahbeamloh! : ))

Feeling loved, feeling blessed.

Bing Bing Boom Boom!!!

Had a great time “cycling” the other day at ECP. I type cycling with ” ” because my friend who cycled with me..in her own words: “I don’t qualify myself to be able to cycle”. I was like *question mark*question mark*. What do you mean don’t qualify! Can, or cannot? Hahaha anyway..all i can say is..she’s much better at it then she thinks she is : ).
However, my bum was aching much after the session..and we didn’t even cycle for long!!!!

I’ve always enjoyed cycling..not as an exercise, but i love to feel the cold breeze brushing across my face and to people watch as i passed them by. A time where my thoughts come alive, where i can have a conversation with my mind, and with God.
Some time back someone asked me..how do you even think at night before you sleep, to reflect..with the TV on, etc. I don’t really know actually, maybe i just need something to stimulate my mind.
There are times when i would just drive alone, to no where..just to think as well.
Hahahaha it seems like my mind thinks best when I’m on a moving transportation!

So the other morning after waking up, as per my daily habit..i’ll have to step on my sis’ “Princess & the Pea Bed” before i can reach the floor and proceed to the toilet. I know..sounds like such a journey already right!
Well..anyway, so what’s different was..this fatal day, her top layer of mattress shifted further from the bottom ones, which i didn’t noticed. So as i came to the edge of the mattress, i stepped on it and for a split second, i was walking on air! Then…”Bing Bing Boom Boom!!!”..how i came tumbling down!!!
As a result, my arm and leg are sore.

So, great. Now i’m aching on my bum, my arm and my leg.
Too much adventure in a week. Tsk. Hahah
I’m so gonna ask my sis to tape all her mattresses together!!

I believe, there is something we can all learn from the strength and resilience the nation of Japan displayed, in the wake of their calamity.

not a snapshot

It’s 3.27pm right now.
I’m kinda liking this quiet moment. Besides the occasional sound of forest insects buzzing outside my window, otherwise, peace. And a realization, that having peace within our souls..is even more vital.

After a 9 months hiatus, I’m back in the work force. Am quite excited to start something entire brand new & foreign, yet at the same time..a certain anxiousness if I’ll do well. Well, what’s important..is the journey and new relationships to look forward too : ).

A dear friend recently introduced me to a song, Before the Morning.
It’s a beautiful song..if you have the time, do check it out.
It says that life is not a snapshot, and it might take time sometimes to see the bigger picture.

Life is not a snapshot. How true : ).
When i was younger..I’ve made great plans for my future, being the meticulous person that i am. I always thought my life was all planned out. But i guess He has bigger plans for me. At times, i feel like He’s taking me for a ride..hmm..well, it had been a very exciting one.
Along this ride, He’s taught me to learn to let go when I wanna hang on. To love when i wanna hate. To give when i wanna take. To forgive when i wanted justice.
Yet, I still have not seen the big picture, but it’s getting bigger : ).

So far it has been a very different year for me.
In terms of my travels, going to places i never thought much of ever going like India, Indonesia and Taiwan. In terms of my work, likewise..coming one full circle. In terms of my personal life, even more so.
I have to say, I’m at a much happier place now than I was last year : ).

For the 1st time, I’m holding 2 hp…oh gosh…
It’s overwhelming me!!
One has already been cumbersome, but now 2?!! This will prob lead to another 3 months of suan-ing by my sis! Hahaha technology & me just ain’t the best of friends.
It’s been a while since i last caught a really good movie. Or a movie that really made me laugh really hard. Hope they’ll be screening some fine ones soon!!!
And, and, and…i finally found a replacement for my old steamboat hangout!!! Pure awesomeness!!! STEAMBOAT is pure joy, esp when eating with the right company : )).

Found this bookmark that church gave out many years back..a list of sentences you can confess daily.
One of it says that God wants you to live life fully and abundantly.
I do believe, deep down, I will this year : ).

where i belong

I’ve dealt with my ghosts and I’ve faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I’m at peace with myself
I have been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I’m movin’ on

I’ve lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they’re always the same
They mean me no harm but it’s time that I face it
They’ll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don’t belong
I’m movin’ on

I’m movin’ on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there’s no guarantees, but I’m not alone
There comes a time in everyone’s life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn’t
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I’ve loved like I should but lived like I shouldn’t
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I’m movin’ on

 

This could easily be my life. But..thank You for the mighty Cross, that dreams can live again : ).

just a thought

How i got to know God personally, was through my poly friend.
She started singing to me over the phone on all the new songs she learnt in church, and funnily..i will just listen to her sing as well hahaha
Over time, she invited me, i went, one thing leading to another.

I realized recently, that the thing that never fails to draw me back to God, is worship. For some, it could be the word, the fellowship..but for me, i’ll have to say it’s worship.
It touches my heart..every time i can feel the touch of God while worshipping Him, and being lost in His presence, feeling Him close. No matter what happens, how far i was…i’m drawn again.

What i’m getting at is..i was wondering if this was because of how i got to know God. What is the thing that draws you back to God? Is it something similar to how you got to know Him in the beginning too?
Haha..not that it matters, just a thought.

Another thought i had when i was in the toilet. I wonder if there’s people out there who will rather use public toilets outside..finish all their “business”, then go home. So to save money on toilet paper & utility bills. A strange thought, but it just came to me hahaha

reflect and release

Finally got some time to sit down & reflect upon my past year..just a short review:

– attended 8 weddings
– served my last meeting on 7Mar after 7 years of ministry
– worked half a year, played half a year hahaha
– finally attended a baking course
– travelled to 4 countries
– 1st time attending a chinese concert with sexy
– char’s & chubbs’ convocation
– became a godmom
– celebrated my 10th driving anniversary on 13Dec

It had been a pretty quick year, and believe many will agree with me on this. However fast time flies, we just need to catch up with it. Looking back on the past events, i am thankful in all things : ).

Entering into the new year..i feel i’m being released to do what i was supposed to do for a long time. Perhaps, it was just my hesitations and fears that caused the delay. But oh wells..better late then never! Hahaha

I was pretty excited to finally purchase my organizer yesterday. After putting down the impt dates & what nots..i feel organized already!

This year, I’m believing that he will:
– bless me indeed
– enlarge my territory (in all ways)
– His hand will be with me
– and keep me from evil
2 Chro 4:10

Heard something recently..That there’s no great people around. Only those who are committed to their cause, and because of that..it makes them great.
Thank you to all the great people in my life. It’s because of your commitment to keep on believing in me, that I’m who I am.
May I make you guys proud in 2011 : )

mariaaahhh

Now that my grandparents have shifted back to their old house, I seemed to have taken over the place of mariaaahhh in our home hahaha

My mission for the day:
– Sweeping entire house (Checked)
– Mopped entire house (Checked)
– Clean up courtyard (Checked)
– Clean up front porch (Checked)
– Take out trash (Checked)
– Collect dry laundry
– Ironing

I wonder how my maid does these chores everyday! My muscle is already aching hahaha

Felt very loved & touched by the gifts & fellowship I’ve received for my birthday..more importantly, am thankful for the relationships in my life : ).

“..and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” – Phil 4:7

PEACE OUT!

sweeeet

I was backing up the stuffs in my HP like music, videos, photos..when I chanced upon this old song my ex-members wrote for me in 2007.
It reminds me once again that that chapter of my life was never wasted, and it’s because of their love..that has transformed me into a better person.
They’re so cute hahhaa…sweeeet : )

You always kept your cool
Even when we were such fools
You taught us of a life in Jesus
Oh we’re just glad He made you too
Although we’re youth with only pennies
We’re glad you’ll never be that petty
Just wanna say we love you too

Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday 
Just like roses without thorns
And cake brightened up with candles
You’re a gift brought down from heaven
Only kinder, brighter and nicer
How could words ever describe
Of our thanks to you everyday

These words can still sing
We’re glad you’ve lived your life His way
We’re who we are cause He touched you
 On that wonderful day
Please know your smile is more than friendly
It shows how love found joy so deeply
Keep holding on everyday

Though this song has to end
Oh but we hope your blessings
Will never end